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April Has to Take Shape
Tonight I’m sitting with one thought more than anything else: I need tomorrow to be different . My hope is that tomorrow is the day things finally begin to take form and take shape. Lately, it feels like I’ve been letting everything except the important things take control of my time, my attention, and my peace of mind. I keep moving, I keep doing things, I keep sending emails and making plans and thinking ahead, but when I stop and really look at it, I have to ask myself a h
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Mar 294 min read
Since Saturday, We’re Starting Over (Extended)
It’s crazy that it’s almost March. Midterms are either here or around the corner. The semester is moving whether I’m ready or not. Time doesn’t slow down just because I’m overwhelmed. It doesn’t pause because I feel unproductive. It doesn’t care if I spent Monday watching YouTube instead of pushing my research forward. And that’s the reality I have to sit with. I just ate a whole sandwich, and now I can’t sleep. Too much food, too late at night. It’s small, but it represents
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Feb 124 min read


I Don’t Know How to Feel Okay Anymore
I don’t know. I’m just getting sadder and more depressed, and I can feel it happening in real time. Part of it is because I push people away—but in my mind, I do it for a good reason. I tell myself they were going to push me away first anyway. I’ve been rejected enough times to believe that before anything even starts, it’s already over. There was this one person I felt close to. We had a shared trauma bond, both struggling with our mental health in different ways. I thought
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Feb 64 min read


2026: Discipline, Focus, and the Long Game
We’re officially in a new year— 2026 —and I won’t lie, it feels different. It feels heavy, but it also feels purposeful. After everything I went through last year, I made a vow to myself that this year would be the best year of my life , not because things will magically be easier, but because I’m finally willing to do the work without excuses. Last year taught me something humbling: I’m not special. And I don’t mean that in a depressing way—I mean it in a grounding way. Non
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Jan 84 min read


✨ End-of-Year Reflections: Standing at the Edge of 2025 ✨
It’s literally the end of the year. Not the after-Christmas , fully shut-down, world-is-quiet part of the year — but close enough. Finals are done. The holidays have arrived. And I’m finally at a point where I can breathe for a moment, look around, and actually be realistic about where I am and what I need to do with my life. This year… This has been the worst year of my life. Not because everything fell apart — but because everything finally caught up to me. And now that I’m
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Dec 7, 20254 min read


🦃 I’m Tired, But I’m Still Trying: Thanksgiving Reflections & What Comes Next
🎥 Watch the Video: Click below to hear everything straight from me. (If you're reading this from my blog, the video is embedded here.) 📹 Video Title: Tired… But I’m Still Trying | End of Year Reflections & Music/Future Update 👉 Watch on YouTube ( https://youtu.be/ybufzfEZvD8 ) 🍂 Where I’m At Right Now Honestly? I had to make this video because I’ve been feeling overwhelmed and under-acknowledged. I’m not where I want to be in life. Not yet. And even though the end of t
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Nov 27, 20254 min read
Blog Entry: Real Intentionality on Independence Day
Last month, I declared it would be a season of intentionality. I had every intention of releasing my album in June, but here we are....
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Jul 4, 20254 min read
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