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3 A.M. Thoughts: Am I Sabotaging Myself?
It’s 3 o’clock in the morning. I should be asleep. Instead, I’m sitting here wondering if I’ve been sabotaging myself. Not because I’m lazy. Not because I don’t care. But because I have too much to do. And when there’s too much to do, something in me freezes. I stay up late worrying instead of sleeping. I plan instead of executing. I overthink instead of organizing. I haven’t even touched the FE exam the way I should. But it’s not even about “touching the FE exam.” It’s about
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Feb 203 min read
Priorities, Deadlines, and the War Against Distraction
Lately, I’ve been realizing something uncomfortable but necessary: I have too many goals. And having too many goals is not always a blessing—it can be a burden if you don’t know how to prioritize them. I’ve always been ambitious. I want to do research. I want to pass the FE exam. I want to release music. I want to write a book. I want to build a legacy. I want to graduate with a PhD. I want to be great. But greatness doesn’t come from having dreams. It comes from deciding wha
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Jan 244 min read


The Weight of Being Seen: Overexposure, Control, and the Fear of Not Being Special
I’ve always lived with a quiet but persistent fear: the feeling of being overexposed. To me, overexposure isn’t just about being visible. It’s deeper than that. It’s the feeling that people know too much about you—your thoughts, your next moves, your vulnerabilities, your private life. It’s the sense that nothing is truly yours anymore. No privacy. No mystery. No control. When you’re overexposed, it feels like your identity is no longer in your hands. It feels like other peop
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Jan 225 min read


Tell Me the Feeling: A Year-End Reflection
Today, I want to talk about something that’s been sitting heavy on my chest — the end of the year, the weight of reflection, and the release of my EP Tell Me The Feeling , which I dropped on Christmas. Right now, it’s December 30th. The year is almost over, and whether I’m ready or not, I’m standing at the edge of something new. This year has been… hard. There’s no other way to put it. It’s been the hardest year I’ve had in a long time — mentally, emotionally, spiritually. I’
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Dec 30, 20254 min read


“Still Breathing… Still Showing Up”
I didn’t even take the FE exam like I was supposed to. And yeah… I was late to another meeting. Again. But that’s better than where I was...
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Aug 17, 20252 min read
Blog Entry: Real Intentionality on Independence Day
Last month, I declared it would be a season of intentionality. I had every intention of releasing my album in June, but here we are....
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Jul 4, 20254 min read


The Plan Is Set: Album Release, PhD Goals & FE Exam Focus | June 2025
This is a period of intentionality —a season where I have to be unapologetically focused and aggressive about hitting my goals. And right...
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Jun 6, 20253 min read


From Regret to Resolve | My PhD Plans & Life Reflections | Blog Entry – May 2025
Things are finally moving in the right direction, and I’m grateful. But I know that just because things are getting better doesn’t mean I...
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May 16, 20252 min read


Things Are Getting Better, But I Still Feel Alone | Blog Entry – April 2025
Life is improving. I’m not saying everything’s perfect—but April has definitely been a step up from March. I feel more grounded, more...
trueproducer
Apr 25, 20252 min read
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