It’s the day after Thanksgiving, and instead of feeling full, warm, and peaceful, I’m sitting here realizing just how much of a mess I’ve made. Not just a literal mess — though that happened, and I’m not even getting into that — but an emotional, spiritual, and personal one. A mess that’s been building all year and finally hit me today. In the last few days, I’ve opened myself up more publicly than I ever have. I’ve told the entire world how I really feel about relationships,

🎥 Watch the Video: Click below to hear everything straight from me. (If you're reading this from my blog, the video is embedded here.) 📹 Video Title:   Tired… But I’m Still Trying | End of Year Reflections & Music/Future Update 👉 Watch on YouTube  ( https://youtu.be/ybufzfEZvD8 ) 🍂 Where I’m At Right Now Honestly? I had to make this video because I’ve been feeling overwhelmed and under-acknowledged. I’m not where I want to be in life. Not yet. And even though the end of t

THE CALM BEFORE THE CHAOS Everything has calmed down a little bit… but somehow everything is still incredibly hectic. I’m sitting here disappointed in myself, disappointed in the choices I’ve made, and disappointed at how close we are to the end of the year — because the end of the year always brings reflection. And this year? This year has been brutal. This year has been an impact year. Not a slow, gentle, learning experience — but a slap-in-the-face, sink-or-swim, everythin

I Wasn’t Going to Write Another Post… I really wasn’t going to write another post this month. I thought I’d wait until next month, give myself a break, catch my breath. But next month is literally just a day or two away—and I’d be lying to myself if I didn’t admit how bad things have been getting lately. Something in my life is not going right. I can feel it. But the worst part? I don’t know what  needs to change. I just know something has to. The Day That Broke Me a Little L

Introduction: The Weight I Carry This year hasn't been kind to me. But honestly, I don’t think I expected it to be. What I did expect, though, was to make a choice and follow through — to either pursue school or dive straight into the workforce. That was the plan: be decisive, intentional, and take charge of my life. But if life has taught me anything, it's that plans rarely go as expected — especially when you're tired. And this year, I’ve been tired in a way that runs deepe

The Season of Overexposure Let’s just start here: I’m no longer afraid of being overexposed. Earlier this year, I used to panic at the idea of someone seeing my screen, reading my unfinished lyrics, scrolling through my folders filled with personal ideas and fragments of myself. But now? I’ve accepted that exposure is inevitable—especially if you want to do something real in this world. Especially if you want to make art, interact with people, or live a life that means someth

I just feel so bad. I put myself in a bad state—and I know it. It happens when I give too much of myself to people who don’t deserve it....